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By Peace | November 2, 2006
These few days I am changing the ‘clothes’ for my blogs or rather mending and adding here and there to make my site a better place. It is not an easy job. I was changing the outlook of Animals Kingdom when I saw the Google Advertisement on this site called Helium.com. It says can earn money by writing your thoughts. So I thought it sounds interesting. So I quickly went over to take a look.
True enough, I roam about the place, and find it ‘no harm trying’. I sign up and in a few minutes I was able to write. And at first I do not know what articles to write about. There are various channels (Subjects) you can choose to write about.
Very automatically, I chose ‘Dogs’ to write about. Then they will give you a title to write about. The title is Coping With Loss Of A Dog. So coincidently, I was thinking of Cebest today. I still miss him and think of him to this day. And I wrote this:
Coping With Loss Of A Dog
Dog is man’s best friends. Indeed, I had bought a dog three years ago. I have always like dogs. I love pets. Since young, I had chickens, tortoises, birds, fish, mice/hamsters and rabbits as pets. It was not until when I got married and have my own house then I had my first dog. The fun really began there. However, due to my pregnancy, I was not able to look after the dog then, and I had to give it away. That is my first ‘loss’ of a dog. However this ‘loss’ is not a natural ‘loss’ as in death. However, still, it is a ‘loss’ from my life. I do not know where he is now also or whether he is still alive now a not. This ‘loss’ was not a great one for me as I was ‘busy with my pregnancy’ at that time, having morning sickenss and all sorts of headaches and pains here and there. I was not able to bath for him, played with him from since pregnancy started at about 6-7weeks. As such, the ‘affection’ seems to diminish, and by the time after my confinements, and I was back to normal again, I was like strangers to him. He saw me and he went away. He also refused me to cut his nails, he was very aggressive and fierce. That was the reason he was given away. So you can imagine, there was not much of grief at that time, but I was sad though whenever I thought of the good times with him.
The real loss of a dog happens to me only just recently in June. It is the saddest day in my life. Till now, I still miss him a lot and hope he will come back to me. But having to cope with it, I have to comfort myself my saying ‘probably it is better for us(the family) since now we got a ‘mouth’ lesser to feed’. Even though that is not the reason! Given a choice, even if no money, I would still want my dog to live healthily and to live with the family at least till old age.
However, he died at a young age of three years old. The family loved him dearly especially me. So you can expect who will be the one suffer the most grief! Different members in the family have different levels of grieves.
To some people, after their dog died, they cannot eat, cannot sleep, cannot resume their normal activities for a period of time. This period of time, in my opinion, depends on the level of affection you had for your dog. This means that how much you love your dog and how much you can accept it. If you love your dog very much and everyday you spend time with him, lossing it, you will feel very painful. And the time taken to heal the pain is equally long if you are not able to accept it.
When I loss my dearest dog, on my first day, the whole day was tears, no meals and I cannot sleep. There was FEAR also. FEAR that I will loss the loved ones in my family too. On the second day, I was still sad, tears filled my eyes whenever I thought of him. Everywhere I looked around the house, I could see his image. I could not believe he could die so young and so unexpected. It was a sudden death.
I questioned myself why he died, I searched for answers. Days passed and I repeated the same things of asking, answering and trying to comfort myself.
Time heals all wounds. Just like when you have a cut on your hand. First it was painful, and then the pain gradually gone. The loss of a dog is just like a cut in your heart. Depending on how attached you are to your dog, the more attached you are to your dog when he is alive, you will feel a deeper cut in your heart when your dog leaves you one day. This pain will not be the same as in the cut of a knife but your heart is aching and you feel very miserable, insecure or fear.
I knew that he was really gone and could not be back. There will come a time when you will finally accepted that your love dog is really dead, but just a matter of time. For me, now is about four months since his death, my wounds have healed. But there is a scar left. It is a big scar hidden in the heart. It never ‘disfigure’ me, but it has did ‘changed’ my hearts.
Till this day, I kept all his things at home. His favourite clothes and shoes. I never washed his collar. I still want to retain his unique ‘smell’. I miss you, my dear Cebest.
I submitted it for Publishing, but before that, you have to tick a box, saying your work must be original. It should not be copy from somewhere else. I find that this is really a very unique and interesting place.
After you had published your articles, you can rate the articles of other people. As of now, I only know this much, how the earnings work I do not know.
This is definitely a place for me to go again.
Some Of Cebest’s Photographs. I regretted not taking more of him.
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