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By Peace | September 16, 2007
Last night, while walking at home, I can feel my heaviness on my chest. It is still the same now. I can hardly breathe. My eyes are tired and I am having headaches too.
I can hardly breathe. No matter how much sorrows I would like to pour onto my diary, Peace Diary at Blogspot, I had no time nor energy to do so. Yesterday was such a tiring day. So was today. I just came back from church, weekend mass at 6pm. It was lucky that my brother wanted to go. I can take a lift in his car and we went there together. I did not need to cycle.
Yesterday, I was not feeling well already. Nonetheless, I had to send the children to church for catechism. I did not cycle yesterday. I was cycling on Friday night to and fro the library and I had sense ‘darkness’ while cycling. I thought it was safer not to cycle then.
This whole week is really very tiring and stressful. I think I had reached my saturation point as well. Not only is Valerie tired, I am tired too. Just now, after coming back from church, Valerie went to her room to sleep. How nice is it to have a good rest. I would love to have a good rest as well. But I cannot. Too many tasks awaiting me. I had not finished up my laundry, I have not marked my children’s work and I had not marked Valerie’s work, which was done yesterday. I have still a few tasks left to do. How can I afford to rest?
Video Conferencing Might Help
I think I need video conferencing so that I can have peace and so does Valerie’s mother. Just now in the church, she send me a message, asking me how is Valerie’s examination results. Tuition was supposed to be on Monday and Wednesday. But she came almost everyday, except Friday for this week. This weekends, she came on both Saturday and Sunday as well. How can I have rest and how I can possibly do so much work? If there is video conferencing or presence of home camera, Valerie’s mother would have more peace of mind. She can see everything happening at home and she can talk to her children or me any time when she needs to. I can have lesser ‘work’ — explaining to her about her progress after every lesson, or what I had been doing with her.
Today at the church, for the first time, I could not ‘absorb’ anything which was being said by the priest. I found that I learned nothing today at the church. For most of the time I was yawning and discipling the kids more than I can pay attention to the sermon. I even had to respond to my phone message. I feel totally stressed and I would rather not earn these extra money had I known about it. If Valerie is going to score badly, I would be to blame. Having two and a half weeks left to improve on her Maths Foundation is like taking one minute to reach the last storey of a block of eleven storey flat by stairs. You have to run all the way up as fast as possible.
Communication can be easier between Valerie’s mother, my sister-in-law, who is in China now, and me, in Singapore if I have video conferencing now. With video conferencing, perhaps, she can see that I am not idling nor taking her money for nothing. Though my brother had said only teach her on Monday and Wednesday, but ultimately, it is teaching her almost everyday. Even if there is no teaching, I still need to do markings, a lot of markings for secondary level.
This week, I did not have insomnia. I had painful eyes. I am giddy and when I laid on my bed, all I can do is sleep and think of nothing.
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