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He Believes
By Peace | February 28, 2008
Dried Scallop Porridge
Relationship Once Built Is Hard To Break
This is our lunch for today. Today is going to be the last day of tuition for Valerie. Quite a sad feeling, and feel bad too. However, I told her that if her results are poor, she can come back to me. Her common test result was out and she had scored well for her Maths Test. It was a relieved. It was so much of a relief now — now that I can shed off some responsibility. Yet I feel bad shedding off this part of responsibility at a time when I was down and utterly broken. That was a prompt decision and a nature call for it. I don’t know if I am going to cope with everything but I must have faith and keep trusting that God will help me. I never ask to get rich. I never ask for wealth, but I ask to have peace, ask for protection and wisdom for my family.
Money Woes
In another one to two years time, all the money is going to be depleted for the housing loans. There are his loans to be settled, bills, expenses and so much money to think of. That is another problem going to come very soon. I had prayed, written in the Advent Heart, for Richard to be successful in his home business. If he can support the family, I can have more time with my children and more time to take care of the household chores.
This is porridge with dried scallop, bought at Hock Hua Tonic. This lunch, I boiled corn, cooked carrots and potatoes soup and we had honey dew with nata de coco for dessert.
Carrot and potatoes soup
Honey Dew with Nata De Coco
If Only Men Can Be Wiser
He had wasted three years, and for the three years, he had not achieved anything. He needs guidance and direction. I understand him. He cannot be left alone. How many times had he wandered when left alone? Man, if he is the child of God, he might be a better leader at home; otherwise, the man that thinks freely wanders freely — Just like Edison Chen and Malaysian Health Minister. They lack focus and lack discipline. For moment of follies, they risk their future, their many years of success.
Experience The Best Teacher, The Most Bitter Medicine
How many years have he wasted his life? How many years have he wasted on his wrong money management skills? I am tired of arguing with him. I am not going to say anymore, but do my own part, mind my own business — care for my children, care for myself, care for him and the family, do my part well.
Unbelievable — He Believes!
Today, from his mouth, he said He Believes. Good! He said He Looked Forward To Going To Church. Ha Ha Ha. Good, if he meant it from the bottom of his heart. I asked him and he said, “From toes to the head.” Whatever! At least he said that. The day he is going to know where his fault lies, will he be leading the right path.
It Begins With Me
I am glad. First I believe. Next I got to show my children. As I show my children, he gets to see. Even if he don’t see, I make sure he listens. Now, He Believes! Whether he really mean it or not, that is Words coming out from his mouth. He could promise me “He would be back”. He would promise me “He would never do such things again.” But he cheated me in his thoughts, in his words and in his action again in Second Life. His mind wanders and he likes to ‘pollute’ his mind with weeds and pests. What for? You tell me you are busy, but busy with what? Busy clicking FaceBook? Busy impressing babes? That will earn you money? I face book everyday, but not electronic Facebook.
I Worked To Get Food, Food Give Me Energy To Fight and Flight
However, I believe that if I try and with my prayer and with the help of God, things will change, change for the better. 愛拼才會贏 — Strive For Success, Strive To Win!
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